The wait

I'm in the 2 week wait right now. I'm probably about 5-6 dpo. I had a blood test for my progesterone done yesterday and the results were fine. The RE's office wants me to come in for a blood pregnancy test next Saturday. I don't think I want to go. I feel so sad when I get the phone call to tell me that I'm not pregnant. I'm thinking that I may cancel the appointment and just call them to schedule one if I'm actually late. It might save me a little bit from feeling so hurt.