Wednesday, December 16, 2009

A Visit to the Fertility Clinic

Today Zoe and I drove over to visit the staff at the fertility clinic that Steve and I went to - I had kept in touch with a counselor who is on staff there. She was really wonderful and helped me get through the grief I felt when our last IVF hadn't worked. She had stayed in touch afterwards to see how I was doing.

When I sent out announcements for Zoe, I made sure to send one to the counselor as well as our R.E. and her staff. The counselor called me to catch up and since we've been playing phone tag, I decided to stop by the office. We stopped in and were able to go inside by the reception desk (but out of the actual waiting area.) I didn't want to be in the waiting area and upset anyone by bringing in a baby...I remember how hard that was for me when I would wait in the waiting room and someone would come in with a stroller or a carseat. The sounds of a baby crying or cooing as I was waiting to have a pregnancy test done (or some other form of treatment) were just too much for me emotionally.

The staff was so excited to meet her! They asked all about her adoption and how things happened. We talked for a bit. Then I got to really sit down and talk with the counselor I mentioned above. She's wonderful - she is so excited for us and asked a bunch of questions. She is working with someone else considering adoption, so I was able to give her some information for that person as well.

Our R.E. was able to visit for a few minutes, too. She actually had tears in her eyes. Zoe had been asleep for everyone else, but she woke up when Dr. K walked in the room. Zoe just smiled and batted her eyelashes at her. It was really sweet.

It was one of those full-circle kind of moments, you know? Back after our IVF hadn't worked, I dropped off a box of unused medications. I wanted to donate them to someone else who could use them instead of us. I felt like it gave me a little bit of closure, particularly as I drove away after donating them. Not sure if that makes sense, but for me, it seemed to help. Going back today was such a celebration and such a feeling of a new just made everything feel full-circle.


JC said...

That sounds wonderful! The new pic of Zoe is soooo cute!

Kristen said...

Oh W, I'm so happy that you've been able to come full circle with all of this! Zoe is just absolutely beautiful!!!!! I haven't commented much (I'm sorry!) but I have been reading your posts.

I wish you, S, and Zoe the most beautiful Christmas on the planet. What a wonderful, joyful year it has been for you! And I can't wait to watch how Zoe grows in 2010!

Leah said...

I completely understand what you mean about coming full circle. And how wonderful that you have a good relationship with your old clinic. It must have felt great to come back with your daughter. :-D

birthmothertalks said...

That was a great post. It almost made me cry. I am so happy for you.

Wendy said...

Thank you so much everyone.

JC - Thanks! I took it about a week ago. She was staring at the Christmas tree lights!

Kristen - Thanks for being so happy for us! Don't worry about not commenting much...I don't think I have been, either.

I hope you have a wonderful Christmas, too.

Leah - It was SO nice to stop by and say hi. The people there were so kind to us. They just really had a nice way about everything. It can't be an easy job, particularly dealing with people who are on an emotional roller coaster. But I just really appreciate all of them.

Birthmothertalks - Thank you so much. :)

littlezen said...

That's how I felt when I dropped of my old meds for one of the girls in my old infertility support group.

Bella said...

Awww...full circle you have come. That's so great!!

Erica said...

Zoe keeps getting more and more precious! I can't imagine what it must have felt like to go back to that place with such a full heart this time around. I hope you all are having a wonderful "first" Christmas!


Me said...

This post made me smile!

Lost in Space said...

Great post, Wendy. I'm so glad you were able to go in and close that part of your life with such a happy ending. (-;

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